Dan the man

Drinking smoking and carrying on. The smoking I started around fifteen years old and did until I was thirty eight years old. I wasn’t a heavy smoker maybe a pack a day on a bad day. I also started smoking pot around the same time which led to eating mushrooms and acid and I really enjoyed that time, I saw some amazing things that I tried to describe but failed every time. On a Friday night we would stand outside a package store and ask people to buy beer for us because we were underage eventually someone always did and then we would go hang out, a store parking lot or the woods anywhere we felt we wouldn’t draw attention to ourselves. We would smoke and drink talk until all hours, that would all change once one of us got our drivers license. Driving under the influence wasn’t a big thing when I got my drivers license even if you got pulled over you would be able to talk your way out of it as long as you were coherent and the policeman weren’t under the same strict standards that they are today and I believe it’s because they knew you, knew your family and friends most likely you were in school with their son or daughter so they cut you some slack and followed you home and had sure you got into the house. Thankfully I quit all those bad habits and for years I didn’t drink or do dope, I adopted a healthier lifestyle and smoking was my only vice.

Hancock, he’s got all the great powers will be drunk and disorderly doesn’t give a shit and can still fight the bad guys. His only kryptonite is women of his same kind, easy fix find a human like his ex did problem solved.

I think dogs make the best pets. I’ve had about eight or ten dogs all of different breeds, mostly mutts because they seem to be the most loyal. I’ve had cats and I will say everything people say about cats living on their terms is correct, they own you not the other way around and you better keep that litter box clean or else there will be a surprise waiting for you when you get home. Having fish makes no sense to me, you’re going to spend money, a lot of money and for what? To watch them swim in the prison cell you call an aquarium? You can get the same exact thing on your smart TV without all the maintenance. My first wife liked exotic birds so we had two parrots not the little ones the big expensive ones that talk very well. And they live like eighty or ninety years, when we got them we had to get a big cage nearly six feet tall so it takes up a ton of room at first it was fun we would clip their wings and nails and teach them different words and we would leave the radio on for them. We had good intentions but they just never stopped talking, to quiet them they told us to put a blanket over the cage and they would think it’s nighttime and sleep well that was bullshit because they would panic and scream until you took the blanket off. So the last pet I had was a dog that my ex took with her and that was thirty plus years ago, it turns out I am okay just taking care of myself and honestly I won’t shit in your bed or maybe I will.

There was a time in my life maybe thirties to fifties when I could connect with people at a level that even had me thinking “How”. I believed I could have sold just about anything even burial plots. Many people have told me I have a gift of really understanding people even women which I always had an uncanny ability with. I could talk a nun out of her BVDs roll in the hay all night and she would have no regrets. Woman are drawn to me like a moth to the flame. My wife of the past ten years gets the best of me because all her friends connected with me in ways I never believed possible and in my youth I would most likely to them up on it because I have and it’s a shitty thing to do and hurts more people than you realize, but and I’m not making excuses here but the relationships I was in in the past didn’t have the comfort of my marriage now, my wife gives me everything I was looking for she’s the complete package. I had great relationships, but they all had at least one red flag and I would overlook it for the sake of the relationship, the trouble with that is all those red flags add up until you can no longer stay quiet and then that conversation becomes an argument filled with words you never wanted to say, but they flowing out of your mouth faster than your mind can tell you to stop. After that it’s a few months of “trying “ only to fail miserably and both of you want to strangle each other. So after a few relationships like that I stayed single and slept around because it was easy for me, but it also made me look at myself and I realized I was a douche bag big time. When I met my wife I wasn’t looking for anyone and I didn’t just fall head over heels in love with her, those first few months when desire is strong and you’ll overlook anything to get her in the sack it was nothing like that she wanted to more than me but I wanted to wait and see how this goes. This year marks our ten year anniversary and there was never a red flag or puppy love or any of that nonsense it’s been a dream come true for me I love her in ways I can’t describe she showed me the best version of myself and for that I owe her exactly that.

Well, we moved from southwest Florida for a few reasons the weather was one of them. The past five or six years had been miserable with a seemingly endless summer and that means running the A/C 24/7 and that sucked big time. I always looked forward to winter because I could shut off the A/C open the windows and enjoy nature, after years of constant A/C we moved to the mountains of NC. Much better weather wise, windows open for six or seven months a few cold months and done. The best season there is fall because of the leaves changing and the colder temperatures, this year we decided to go to Thailand from February to May and the weather here is blistering hot with overnight temperatures in the mid eighties, apparently March and April are their hottest months and honestly I don’t know why we decided to come here then, but we are and it’s hot so we’ve been traveling to the beach often and the mountains as well. All and all I love the fall in western NC.

Energy, ambition, desire, hunger anything that moves me as I find myself do very little and having more time to do things. I would say that a case of mild depression is in my life now and honestly I have every reason to be the happiest guy in the world, but the brain is an enigma and we will never know it’s full capability, I have been to therapy many times and it does good for awhile I leave feeling rejuvenated, lighter less heavy and it stays that way for months, years maybe longer. As I get older and just entering retirement I find myself spending more time in my head, oh I’m active every day I go for morning walks/runs afternoons I workout or do tai chi or yoga and my wife and I spend a good amount of time together so I feel I do have a healthy balanced life, so why so sad?!? That’s a question I cannot answer.